Hi it's me again, how are you and how things are going up there?
it's almost 6 years now grandma and I just can't get you out of my head every night before sleeping I think about you and every morning you are the first thing that pop into my head -unless i have a lesson-
I'm okay now, well I'm not expecting you to come back or anything like before so I guess I'm accepting the fact that you are gone forever. Things are going fast you know, i mean you left me when i was 12 and now I'm almost 18,and I'm at my senior year in high school as well. I wish you were here to see me growing up and witness all of those ups and downs. If you were here I wouldn't stop talking to you I swear, I would tell you about my first days in this new school and how is it felt to be the new kiddo, I'd tell about those bitches who tried to get me down but I took control of it don't worry, I'd also tell you about my crush, or should I say crushes :'D LOL, I would tell you about my new friends and about those who are trying to get advantages of me, I would make you beg me to stop talking grandma, I swear.
I have your photo as my lock screen, and I found your dress I wear it everyday to prayers and god,It still smells like you and I still have this tie you made for me in fifth grade
but unfortunately I don't have those little dresses you made for me and Renad when were about five,you were so talented. I remember when you helped us make a little dress for our doll when we had a sleep over at your place once, that was cool tho. I guess one can never hold on to every memory it's just how things go down there on earth we hold on to things we think they mean life to us and when they go away, life keeps going on as simple as it may sounds.
you know what is making me so angry, that ever since you left life didn't stop,I thought that when we lose our beloved ones things will at least suck forever, but nothing of this occurred actually. It went like usual just a couple of consecutive ups and downs every now and then, and despite all of that I'm still young, too young to get the whole situation
anyway granny stay safe till we can see eachother once again in your place, you will always be in my prayers !
