Dear One

     I love the way you church friendships, you actually listen to your inner voice all the time, the one that keeps on telling you that you and this person will make such a great friends, and you gracefully go with it, so nice and easy. 

you're always the generous side of the relationship you always give uncontrollably, and always think of new,nontraditional, outstanding ways to express how your friend means to you and how much you do really love him/her. 

someone once told me that people seek different roads to express appreciation to their loved ones, some just say 'I love you' when they really feel like saying it, some take good care of the tiny details, but you always go with presenting gifts. Your mind is always so crowded with ideas of nice, meaningful gifts to give to your loved ones not necessarily on their birthdays, anytime of the year would be prefect and special... "Special" here's the word, you always seek ways to show your loved ones how special they are to you. When you tell them "you guys mean the world" you actually mean it, I mean if you don't you wouldn't be that miserable, dear one.

    I'm sorry that you have to go through this, you always blame yourself  that they don't talk anymore, that they don't even seem to care anymore, that they forgot about your exerted efforts and the excitement that fills your chest everytime before giving them the "Special" gift of yours or before wishing them "happy holidays" in your unexpected ways. 

Excuse my language. But you're such an idiot, dear friend. Have you ever though about yourself  as much as you think about making them happy? Like do they even care as half as you do?, do they even find your gifts special?, have you ever felt special?. Well, I guess not.

   Don't mean to be harsh on you but look at yourself, you are literally "stalking" you're bestfriend's accounts on the social media, you over think every conversation you guys had and try to figure out what went wrong, while, it was never your fault, you're making up silly excuses for her to totally forget about your entire existence while she's getting sexy for marasi. 

dear fellow, maybe you were mistaken she wasn't your best friend form the beginning, best friends care, text, call, they are usually eager to know if you are doing alright. You just followed your inner voice so blindly, I mean you can't call any nice person a best friend, for god's sake.

  here's the deal, mate. Take a step back and breathe!! Then take the decision to let go. You don't deserve to overthink your mind out every night about things that your poor brain can't even understand anymore , you don't deserve to be exhausted, you deserve to feel special too!